From The Ashes ...

I'm sick, but not sick, sick, (I think).

Good Lawd I feel like crap. Two days of fever and chills. Last night I didn't sleep more then an hour at a time and probably four hours total. I woke up this morning either shivering, or in a soup made of me. I finally gave up trying and got out of bed to discover that The Hellcat never came home. When last seen, he had been heading over to a crystal meth "friend's" to "hang out" and pick up a wet/dry vac. The fact that he didn't take Colby should have been a clue. So as horrible as I felt I ended up taking his dog down five flights of stairs during a bitterly cold windstorm to let him go. I know. Some of you, who aren't dog people can say "Fuck that, leave the dog to suffer." How can I, when I was miserable and suffering too? But I'm a person. I can feed myself. No one has to take me outside to shit. (Unless they ask nicely) So I fed the dog and took him out, all the while inventing arguments and scenario's with The Hellcat where I tell him how fucking selfish he is. How unfair after I told him how awful I felt the night before. And still, once again he leaves my in a position of being cruel to an innocent animal, or jeopardizing my own health by going outside covered in flopsweat.

In any case, my new computer arrived one day late. Hooking it up was a breeze. Printer works. Phone, DSL. Check and check. It's cherry. I'm having speaker problems which I must solve to enjoy me some internet porn. Also. I want to hook up my old Hard Drive to my new system. Does anyone know If I have to do the whole (heh hole) Master/Slave thing? Or can I pop my old hard drive into a drive bay on my new PC and designate it with a new letter. Will XP see and read off it?

PS: Thanks, Sean. Hopefully I'll be on the mend tomorrow. A decent night's sleep would be lovely.

Update: 12:30 Saturday. I finally slept through the night. My fever broke at some point while I slept. I'm starving, dehydrated and still a little tired but I'll be fine. You know, when you're HIV+, getting sick is not all that remarkable. The weird part is that getting better is cause for a bit of celebration. Any day I can confirm I have a functioning immune system is a good day indeed.

Current body temperature: 101.5.